To have it all---

It is not so bad
at times
to have it all (ok...exaggerations here lol)

Normal
to defend
no longer
require me not

Delusions
I have plenty
Never not enough
Therefore
Illusions, the less evil
I need not

All the pains to cope
I am forced to learn
Cognitive process to stop
To see nothing at all
other than the inevitable hallucinations and delusions along the road
Through which I see
how I have been
all my years
A prize-fighting chicken without a head
Wings flapping
to fend
in fear
Who I am not
What I have not

To have it all
I am full
What I have
Take it
Take some more and more
till you can't take no more

for this rat
not fear not
having not enough...
and
What a wonderful world! lol

(and feel free to give some to the others, God... and again, oops, my evil twin had sinned... lol)